So i worked the air show this weekend. It was busy and tiring but we put on a good show... We had over 70 media representitives there. Given that almost all were air show junkies it was still good to see the attention. Now im going to relax. Ahhh.

Whatever I'm feeling lazy and antisocial.
Why does Erik keep inviting people over my house?

Loss

My Bapa (also known as Grandfather) is 80 years old. He retired Navy and last birthday he cut his cake with his sword. Everyone thought he was wacky when he did but I get it. Not much longer afterword he was in and out of the hospital for over a month.

He didn't think he was going to make it. He wouldn't say that now because its not good to speak about death lest you attract its attention but I am sure thats what it was and he didnt want to risk going quietly into the dark.

I admire my grandfather, hes lived a long and interesting life. He has three children and 6 grandchildren. He fishes in the brook behind his house and builds birdhouses.

I can't say that I really know him though. Just recently sheading the naivety of youth doesnt give me much time to view him through adult eyes and I dont think he will make it much longer.

I have been thinking alot about that. The deeper relationships we can develop with our family as we get older. My aunt died right before I deployed and sometimes I think I see her still. I'm pretty sure that it is my mind unwilling to let someone go but still its unnerving when you are driving down the highway and the lady next to you looks exactly like your dead aunt.

I never got a chance to forge that deeper understanding of her. I remember that she loved hand grated cheese and feather bed toppers but I couldn't tell you much more about her. I cant say I really knew her either.

As I sit here I can't help but wonder who will be the next to leave with out me really knowing them? Who will I eventually leave without them really knowing me?