Quick while the baby is sleeping:
I was reading my friend's blog (http://antiope.weebly.com/journal.html) and it reminded me of my fluctuating desire to live a less chemical lifestyle. Tomorrow I will be attempting my own deodorant creation. If Rhea cooperates. :-)

I would love to stay and chat but I'm trying to rush a feeding so I can go help dig the truck out.

Just Happy

Im doing good. Even though the weather outside sucks, I'm happy.
Rhea is doing really well.

Erik has been sleeping in the spare bedroom at night because he isnt getting any sleep. That kind of upsets me but he is soo much easier to deal with when he is well rested.

This winter just makes me want freak out about our house! It is so cold in here! There is no insulation anywhere other than the master bedroom. I guess that means I will be a busy bee this spring. We have the insulation now we just have to put it in place.

All quiet

My biggest fear is that Rhea will decide one day that she cannot sleep by herself anymore. Some days I can't get her to fall asleep unless I'm holding her. That really throws a wrench in the works for getting something done. Its hard to fold laundry or wash dishes with a passed out baby in my arms.

Right now she is sleeping on my bed as I type this. I use the term sleeping lightly because at times it looks like she is auditioning for a kung fu movie. I'm scared to move because then she will wake up and scream or worse want to eat AGAIN.

Some women have colicky babies, some have quiet babies. I have a ravenous baby. All she wants to do when shes awake is eat. I know shes getting enough because she still falls asleep after eating but I feel like a 24 hour buffet. It can get pretty frustrating.

Anyway I've been trying to pump some extra breast milk so Erik can feed her while I'm taking my tests on Saturday. (Still have no clue what I'm going to do for the Math portion... probably just fail it.) I haven't been getting a lot. Maybe an ounce here and there. So right now I have 3.5 ounces stored up. That's maybe one feeding and I'm going to be gone for at least three. Poor Erik.

Before Rhea:
I was often able to drop into a solid sleep at the drop of a hat.

After Rhea
I can't get my mind to shut the hell up! long enough to doze off.

Oh well. At least some of us are getting some sleep. I can only imagine the amount of stress my marriage would be under if Erik was as sleep deprived as me right now.

hello there!

Rhea had her two week check up today and she gained about a pound. Yay!

Erik went back to work this week so it's just me and her at home now. Plus the worlds most annoying two dogs. (Not their fault, just the way they are.) I tried to do some studying for a test I have to take on the 15th and I'm pretty sure I'm screwed... I don't remember half of the math stuff I need to know to pass. Seriously, who remembers square roots? Not me.

The good news is that I'm pretty confident in the Writing and Reading section. I took the practice test and only got one or two questions wrong for each section. Wahoo!

I have a confession to make.

I had an attack of hubris at the pediatricians office today. The Dr. asked me if Rhea had eaten very little formula and I proudly announced that she has never had formula. I felt superior for a split second and now I feel bad. I don't hold it against anyone for formula feeding. Hell, I was formula feed for most of my babyhood. So now I feel guilty for feeling better than anyone else. The funny thing is I'm pretty sure that I won't be able to breast feed Rhea for as long as "they" say you should.. Here hoping though because boob juice is free.

I feel pretty good now that she is here. Mornings are tough for me. I rarely can force myself out of bed before 10 a.m. but afternoons are easier thanks to a little caffeine (if you need the coffee fix, do it.)

See, I keep saying I feel good but the result is a scattered, disorganized post like this. When will my brain reconnect all it's circuits?